Inner conservation,
Deeply in my mind,
Of the thoughts I’ve left behind.
Fear, capitulation
Of the sanity. Inside
Myself I find salvation.
I’ll let the other ones decide
Whether I should
The loneliness abide.
Only if I could
Collect the pieces of my will to fight
I would liberate myself
From the sickness
Of the pointless life
And the repulsive thickness
Of people’s leprosy -
They all wallow
In hypocrisy.
But I won’t swallow
Their infection,
I won’t let it near me.
I’m full of affection
Towards the freedom, I don’t see.
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Life is ugly, future’s ugly;
Thoughts are driving me insane.
I don’t want existence foolish,
I don’t want to live in vain.
I hate the endless vague remorse
But it still burns inside of me.
I wish I could be comatose
But I know there is so much to see.
I won’t forgive my odious conscience.
She keeps her watchful eye on me –
Obnoxious way to make me live in silence,
Preventing me from being free.
No, I don’t want to follow fables
Or reasons so emotional.
I just look for something stable
To believe, not something notional.
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